I think it was decided by the fact that it was 81 degrees in my office, the A/C out…again.
Now, you all know that I love my little studio. It has been a haven for me over the past year, and I have seen my business grow and develop there. It’s where I experimented with my first lighting system, where I worked on my images for print competition, where I met with clients and had moms and dads and their senior tear up at reveal sessions. So many sweet times.
So it may come as a surprise that I decided not to renew my lease next month. The truth is, I have outgrown the space. I know what I need now. And I know that there is something better out there for me.
But that realization and the subsequent hunt for a new space has thrown me into another, deeper pool. It has to do with purpose and goals and what the future should look like.
This time of uncertainty reminds me of a dream I once had when I was waiting to learn where I would be heading to graduate school.
In my dream, I was on an airplane, flying to an unknown destination. And in that dream, I had a Bible, and I could see the reference, but not the verse: Hebrews 11: 8.
Well, in my dream and when I awoke, I had no idea what Hebrews 11:8 said. I grabbed the Bible on my nightstand and looked it up. Here is what I found:
By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.
He obeyed. He went. Even though he didn’t know where he was going.
The truth is, I don’t have the full picture. I know I am supposed to move out of my sweet little studio, and that God has something else for me. But he hasn’t revealed what that something else is yet.
But in the meantime, I am going to obey what he has shown me, even though I don’t know where I’m going.
The next part of the passage is such a great perspective-check:
By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God. (Hebrews 8:9-10)
The thing is, Abraham knew that ultimately even when he knew the identity of his destination, it still wasn’t his final goal. It wasn’t his final destination. Instead, his heart was longing for a place to which he could not travel until he met the one who called him in the first place.
We are citizens of heaven, living in this outpost of the Kingdom–wherever that particular outpost may be. We pray for the peace and prosperity of the city in which God has placed us. But we also know that the longing we have for home–for a place of rest, for the perfect location, for something more–will not be met until we finally come HOME. There is a place there being prepared, and we will always look to that final place.
When we love a place in this outpost, it is because in it we see the outlines and shadows of our Home. So, as I set out in obedience to follow where the Lord may lead, I will be praying that this next place is one in which people sense rest, productivity, hope, and Something More. Wouldn’t that be amazing?
Because the truth is that the one who is preparing that place is dwelling with me even now.
Jesus, guide us into the places where you would have us serve you here and now. I give my own dreams and plans to you, trusting that you have a plan. Give me discernment as I walk this path; close and open doors to guide me. And above all, please help me to trust–to really trust at the deep level that makes me more like you. Let that trust overflow into my attitudes and actions, so that my family experiences peace in me, even in this time of transition. Thank you for having a plan that makes me more like you, even when I don’t know what it is.